On the job hunt... and the power of reflection

The agents were recommending me jobs that pays $6 to $6.50 per hour for temp jobs and on the monthly scale, it was around 1300 to 1400 per month. This is like low. With all that negativeness, it sort of turn me back to what I was before I left for Auckland. Snacking and snacking at the front of my computer trying to drop resumes all the time.

Yesterday was 21 July 2010, I have a messy morning. My job agent send me the interview details last min and I have to take a cab down to science park 2 for an interview. The rocking of the cab made me dizzy and I was suffering from a mess head ache as I was waiting for the interviewer so I did something that I have not done for that long.

I closed my eyes and imagined that I was back in my apartment room 24A in Auckland. I got out of my room, walk towards the lodge area and then exit from the door to the carparks and walk up the slope towards the path to new lynn. But before new lynn, it was the sunday market. I recalled the noisy market, the locals shopping around and then on my way to the new lynn shopping mall where the kiwis were drinking and eating desserts, the stores there as well as the way back, the creek that I walked everyday, Unitec and my friends there. All that brought me a smile to my face as I recalled each of them. I open my eyes again, sure I was still in Singapore but my mind was totally lighter with the burdens and stress disappearing. I no longer feel the stress of the Singapore life and the duties that I have for.

The interview turn out great. As usual I was asked about my accent. Well this was something that I did not notice while I was in Auckland. Back in Singapore, the locals were asking me if I was a Singapore PR or was I a foreigner. Why? To the locals, I speak with an accent that was not the typical Singapore English. So to my peers in Auckland, have fun returning home with an accent haha!

After the interview, I listen to my heart once again and walk around in IMM like I did when I was in Auckland. I walked around Daiso and bought black sugar sweets which is so nice!

Then I took the train to east point and wrote my reflection on my diary. Here's what I wrote for my reflection:

'I decided that since it was so hard for me to re adapt back to the life of Singapore, Why should I forced myself back to the mainstream? I was kind of like forcing myself back to the mainstream til today. Therefore why don't I try to be myself, listen to my heart and try living in Singapore? I was snacking away during that 21 days and if I have not keep a close look out on my weight, it could bounce back easily. It was due to the stress from trying to bend in back the way of life in Singapore and my mind was getting heavier each day and my smile was getting weaker...After imaging of Auckland, my smile turn stronger and my mind turn lighter.'

Well speaking of reflection when I was in Auckland, every morning, I would spend time in front of my computer reflecting on what I did the day before. It was till the 10 days trip with Sunny that I bought a little notebook and wrote my reflection for each day in that book should I be unable to switch on my computer.

Since then, the book has been with me all the time recording my reflections, things i ate and i did as well as the resumes for the job applications that I submit online. Reflection sort of like highlight to the self of what they have been doing and make the individual realized their faults and try to correct it. If not for that book, I would have bounced back in my weight and not lose a kg. The other point that it serve, it keeps me motivated. As I read my past reflection in Queenstown, a smile was brought to my face.

Upon reaching at East point, i walked around the building, have my eyes checked and then walked home from east point. Its my weekly to do for keeping my legs in shape as well as seasoning my legs to enable them to cover further distances so that I could save more on the travel fares haha.

That night, I went to bed like old times at 8 plus.

Vegetarian Tian at Tcc: At the bottom is fried tofu, potato, carrots, cheese, mushroom, pumpkin, bamboo shoot and then mushroom again with salads at the sides.