preparing for auckland

well, here's the monthly averages for the temperature in auckland, it be between 24 to 10 degrees and i was advise to bring warm clothing as the weather turns cold from may onwards. june is their winter.

Here's my flight details, i be flying off from terminal 1 on the 13 feb 2010 at 1955 meaning i have to be there at least 2 hours as check in closes 90 mins before that. the flights at 7.55pm

oh ya just got news that i am number 5 on the waiting list for photographic pratices -.-"

Beyond the Realm of Conscience

my cousin rented the beyond the realm of conscience for me to watch before i prepare my trip to go auckland. Its was a wow performance by travia, one moment she be smiling then the other moment she be giving evil looks

after this weekend, its 20 more days before i fly to auckland.

Giant shoot out

okies now is one more step to go for auckland and that is waiting for my subjects to be approved by unitec. accommodation is much or less settled and I still have some loose ends to tie on the rmit side. Today went to change some money for auckland as I figured that the rates might go higher when chinese new year draws near. anyway the rates is 1.03 which is consider low as i seen 1.05 to 1.04 and above so ya went to change some.

Da jie rented gong xin ji for me to watch and ya i pretty enjoy watching it usually i dun like watching dark shows but surpisely michelle yim and travia is nice to watch. not to used to see kevin in period customes and sa yi (susanne) in a good role. too used to seeing her as sa yi in jia hao yue yuan

anyways below are the pictures I taken at vivocity giant haha

The gold at the end of the rainbow

If you wonder what I mean by a wow image the below is the example of it:

more could be viewed at the following website:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/francislm/galleries/72157622678765639/#photo_3325969636

They say that when the rain is over, comes the rainbow and at the very end of the rainbow, you find a pot of gold. After the slient tears, a rainbow did come out for me and at the very end I found something that is worth more than a pot of gold...a true friend...

The Slient Tear

If someone asked what's the most hurtful feeling, I shall say its the slient tear. So what is the slient tear? It is the tear that flows from the heart. This would only happen if you feel your heart being terribly sad. There are the tears beyond control that just flow down from the edge of your eyes and they wont seem to stop even if you force them to...

You wont cry with sound but sliently the tears just flow down...I be in this situations lots of times before...Not that I want to but I just cant help it. I am not one who put an act in front of others, not one who would be easy at using words to comfort others or to show care and concern for others. Cos to me words are just like bubbles that would vanish, many times I want to tell someone how much I miss or care for them but then that just words...words doesnt care much weight to me. I feel that its the action that count. I could tell you today that I will be there when you needed me but then when you really needed me, I might not be at your side so what's the point of those words? to make the person feel better? but that just a false hope...

So when I cried its really hurtful and slient. Firstly I dun want to let people see me crying or that the tears just drop down. Its really troublesome to let people see your sad face lol...

Anyway this time the slient tear, I did feel sour at the same time together with hurt. No one scolded me, no one beat me up. Its just about someone's reaction that I really cared for. Immediately after I heard the reaction, the tears just begin to fall... ...

May be I might not be the best among the basket of eggs, the shinnest in the pot of gold, the cutest in the roll of dolls/ puppies or cuties, maybe I am not the most likable or sociable person to begin with or occupied a place in one's heart but than to me you are one of the most important pieces that make my heart whole. Sure I might be like a wooden block at times but that doesnt mean I am cold hearted or grow distant. Its just that I dun known how to express myself for the fear of projecting as a hyprocite in the end. I seen hyprocites here and there and the wrost fear is to become one of them. My mum say that I dunno how to care for others, she's right. I really dun known how to do besides physical actions mainly because I dun want to give people false hope or blank cheques.

clueless

Last friday went to have a gathering of steamboat with my mi friends and then went for desserts! Its really great to meet them again like old times!

streamboat food with chilli

sasha's dessert

mi juan's dessert?

sasha's dessert

wei ping/ bao yun's dessert?

sasha's dessert haha

After this sunday, I be having 5 days more of work before I completed the contract, which means that I be free after the 15 jan to do some email chasing, packing for auckland. I really want to get the documentations to be over and done with so that I could have a peace in the heart. Not sure how or what its going to be like in the next 5 months when I'm in auckland but then it something I want to find out. First thing first is to break the boundaries of my pictures. I got feedbacks that the things that I took are nice / dry or not properly expose on the pictures that I posted that far...nothing beats the feeling of feeling stagtent which I am feeling now for the photos I took. There was no wow impression of the pictures taken, there is no improvement of the pictures I have taken which is why I really want to go auckland to find out if I have the possibility of breaking that particular boundery

Second thing to find out is my adaptability, I think I pretty adaptable but then most of the time its not really out of the comfort zone.

Guess the most important thing is to go out there and sort out what sort of person am I lol

a hyprocite?

a devil?

a loner?

or someone that I really would not recognize or know at this point of time?

Not sure...puzzel...clueless is what I have in mind when I think of the new journey that I going to embark on.

would I keep my promise to JM and learn to grow up there?

would I change to a better/ wrost person?

would I still be able to keep my bonds with my friends and family as its going to be a long distance relationship for the next 5 months and that the time difference is 5 hours apart?

would we turn strangers the next time we meet up and have no topic in common?

Would i be able to live up to what i say?

what will be like after the 5 months?

I'm uncertain of the future and cant make any promises to anyone, the only thing that I think I could do is to gather up the courage to face the challenges that would be awaiting for me in auckland. In the past, I usually could ran and hide from problems and leave to someone to fix it or hide behind my friends or ran to family for protection but for the next 5 months there be no place to run and the only thing that I could do is to stand still take anything that I could reach and be prepare to deal with the challenges that lies ahead lol

oh this cutie? its the gift from the mi clicks haha! thanks all! she would remind me of xiao bai when she with me in auckland but not naming her xiao bai 2 instead she's gonna be call puzzel as each place I am at is going to be a piece of the whole puzzel after the 5 months!