Have you find at one point in time that you need to grow up?
At a point of time that you cant rely on others to get things done?
At a point of time that you feel that you have to take on the change even if in your heart you resist it greatly?
I find that need...not that i dun want to grow up. Grow up yes! but not in a sophisticated world where you have to guess what others are thinking, what they think about you, planning to take advantage of you to gain benefits all the time.
My mum or dad ask me to be more clever at times.
But my belief which i strongly held is living things/humans should help out one and another whenever they can. Dun hurt others or in future people will hurt you back. If you have the means to help others than help, people will help you back when you are in need. Why hurt others in the first place? why cant you help others? Why do you want to spend the same energy hurting others and live a life trying to figure other people minds?
Humans should do good and not bad. If people in the organization help out one and other and not vein for promotion, the company can benefit as a whole.
Helping others and making their life easier isnt that a great thing? People get problem solve and could focus their energy on great things.
Just like a child, befriending one is truthful at the heart and not with motives.
Why cant adults be truthful to each other at the heart?
Why must there be motives? why cant people help each other to gain more together?
Call me a country bumpkin if you wanna, i just feel the world need not be so complex. You can say if you did not protect yourself, someone may harm you but can i throw this question back at those with that thinking? Why not try to change the situation? Why only protect yourself to prevent others from harming you? why not change them to stop harming people? Why let there be another victim when you can stop one.
Call it one of my emo posts. The reason that i posting this is that I felt the pressure to grow up and not be in my enclose space.
My future job will need me to think more maturely and act to the benefit of the company.
My parents will need me to act more independently and know how to look after myself so they no need to worry about me.
My friends would prefer me to think or act maturely so that they could count on me.
My position needs me to act maturely so to bond others
Overall, i need to take that major change in my life so that i could do well in future.Taking this step is one hard and tough one. At the bottom of my heart, i resist it but i know i have to go through it...
Even if i really scare and unable to put the burdens down, i decided to go for it. Melbone for the last sem. its not about studying anymore, its more to learning to be independent which i lack in.
I hope i be a better person when i return after the last sem.

Sayings goes: you never know how blue the sky is if you remain on the ground